AGE 60- 365 DAYS OF POSITIVE REVAMPING, REDOING AND MAKEOVERS
by Lois M. Valentin
I vowed that if I turned 60, then life would be different. I would have 365 days of making changes. That means at least 365 changes. But could multiple like rabbits to a much larger number.
A few days ago I turned 60. Never thought I would have made it this far. The OUIJA board I played with many decades ago used to say I would croak at 16. WRONG! It's been a tough road all around but here I am. I have overcome decades of abuse of many kinds from many people; gun being held at my head; car accidents, robberies, death, despair, loss; etc. And yes, HERE I AM!!!!
I have a wonderful family despite the fact they piss me off at times. I have friends- both online and offline. Some are both. All are great. Some more than others. You know who you are. All are loved but in many different ways.
May 15th I did have the high risk surgery. Even up to the time of surgery my doc talked about death possibilities.I would have been his 1st patient to die. Proved him wrong. I am ALIVE! All my hernias that loved to poke out and play tug of war with me are repaired and now are sutured in a mesh cage . For the first time in a very long time, I am in no pain. That's right! No pain from the surgery. Whereas prior to surgery, I often would cry because of it. Even had to take morphine a few times at the ER. After surgery I did not take any pain meds. ( I did take tylenol when I got home because the ab binder does make my back uncomfortable. There is a big difference between uncomfortable now and excruciating pain from prior to surgery. )
May 16th I left the hospital for home but prior to that I reflected with a nurse that it was 60 years and 2 days that I was in the maternity ward of the same hospital with my mom. I love and miss her.
Now it's time to move forward. Full speed ahead. Sometimes taking baby steps and sometimes much larger ones. The changes themselves could be small or could be drastic, but all will be of my choosing. One thing is all will be POSITIVE. I am so tired of NEGATIVE. Someone suggested it might be a control issue. Perhaps in a sense it is. I am tired of others controlling my life. Or taking away my own control.
I do not like being used. I HATE being used . That does entails many aspects. Past and present. Those users know who they are. I am not talking about games, but am talking about those that want to take away one's soul.
With that being said, where to start. In one direction or in all directions? Somewhere in between? Since I have no patience and hate procrastination, then choices must come soon.
Things I love to do and am great at: I can sew up a storm when needed. I can write even better. My creative thoughts are always on full steam and out of the box. Recycling, reusing and recreating are other things I am good at. I love doing genealogy research- mine or others. It seems all are entwined with each other at times.
I also dream a lot. Most people do. But mine seem to be creative. Sometimes so much that I have to write them down. Sometimes they are of the physical sense of objects being created, sometimes they are metaphysical , mythical aspects of love. Sometimes I do have nightmares that scare the bejeebies out of me. Some dreams just take me out of this world. Hmmm!
Now it's time to get some of the dreams into reality. Now to forge ahead with the improvements.
Coming along for the ride?/??
Until next time.
Lois
